12. Recovering from an emotional breakdown
Nov 30, 2021
You are going through life and all is well. Instantly, it all changed and you were on your knees, feeling lost with no idea how life goes on without your loved one.
Hi, I am Janet Jones, founder of Happiness Millionaire. Welcome to my conversations with my rock on the beach, Sylvia-Rose. She helped me navigate the next chapter of my life, the chapter without my 22-year-old son, Murray. Join these musings about life, grief, and loss with my rock, Sylvia-Rose. To learn why she is called Sylvia-Rose and how and why we met, I invite you to read my first blog - 'If Rocks Could Talk, Meet Sylvia-Rose'. You could also register to have these blogs delivered to your email inbox so you never miss them. Click the FOLLOW SYLVIA-ROSE button.
Discussing recovering from a momentary breakdown, learning from it, and taking better actions - 26th of Nov, 2021
Jan - Morning, Sylvia-Rose. I have had all kinds of weather coming here today. Crazy wind, sharp lashing rain, and now a sunrise glow!
SR - Morning, my friend. Yes, just like I have been saying, everything changes except the sun. How are you doing? Did you have a good day yesterday?
Jan - I am pretty good this morning. I slept really well. I did what you said about loving my precious heart and letting the light flow in. I also added, imagining the Love of Murray flowing into my precious heart, then from mum, and dad, followed by grandma, grandad, and all the other people who contributed to me being here. All that unconditional love flowing through me. I slept like a baby. I did wake in the night and I did it again.
SR - I am so glad that worked for you. Keep doing it and it will bring you untold strength.
Jan - I did have a major crash to the floor yesterday. Triggered by a song on the radio by Marvin Gaye. The one about ‘Have you seen my old friend Abraham.’ It broke me. I want Murray back so much. I know I keep a conscious lid on that every moment of every day. The lid flew off.
SR - With each break comes strength. It was no accident you heard that song. It was time for a meltdown to build your strength some more.
Jan - Realising my wish and want will never come true, I dragged my wee body out to an art class. Unfortunately, I got the date wrong. Going out softened the sadness. I also met a new friend. Just talking to someone who had no idea what was going on inside, and smiling and chatting about unrelated things, lifted my spirits. I will be doing other classes in the coming weeks. Some daft things too. Laughter is very important.
SR - Well done. I am guessing the bottle of wine from the shop was a temptation before you went out?
Jan - It was. I could feel that coming on and I fought it. I fought it. I was very proud of myself for taking action that would benefit me.
SR - Brilliant. You are getting stronger.
Jan - Time for me to go.
SR - Sure. You have a full day ahead. I wish you love and light in each moment.
Jan - Thank you. 
SR - Oh, and well done on achieving your hat trick of walking 5 days in a row. Have the weekend off unless you need me. I am not going anywhere 
Jan - I will do. You do know a hat trick is three, right?
SR - Not in rock world. A hat trick is something that has been completed in a small number of efforts.
Jan - I think you are making that up.
SR - Everything in life is made up.
Jan - I guess. Thinking that makes life more fun. It is Park Run again tomorrow. I could do with a hat trick for that. Bye for now. Love you 
SR - You too :)
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