50. Feeling on top of the world

Jan - Thanks. I am feeling on top of the world.

 

SR - I can see that and feel that from you.

Jan - It is amazing how a change in energy spreads out like the rings when you throw a stone into a still pond.

 

SR - That is a beautiful image. What has changed?

Jan - It is the slow change of continually doing something that benefits you. Like keeping to a diet or showing up to work with a smile. I believe this is the effect of continually meditating and doing ten minutes of yoga before coming here for a walk. In the past few days, I have added a little something extra.

 

SR - I knew there was something. I could see it in your eyes.

Jan - Flattery will get you everywhere

 

SR - So what is it?

Jan - I have been doing abundant meditation. Focusing on creating wealth. I am doing it a little differently though. I bring in extra help from my ancestors and Murray. I feel them around me, wanting to live through me. Wanting to free me of fear so I can live fully. I sense they now know that fear prevents people from having a full human experience. The opposite of fear, I used to say was faith, but I now would say it is love. It is Love that they are all infusing within me.

 

SR - Perhaps love and faith are the same thing?

Jan - Perhaps. I hadn’t thought about it like that. When we truly believe and have faith in something or someone, I guess that is underpinned by love. If we allow ourselves to come from a place of love, then it doesn’t matter what happens. 

 

SR - No, because love is all-powerful and present. Maybe it is just about seeing the love, rather than seeing the fear.

Jan - I said the other day I feel I am seeing life for the first time. This is how love feels.

I often treat myself to looking at photos of Murray in the mornings and he is forever present in my visual mind. This morning, I came across a group of photos from the last Christmas Eve we had together, in 2018. We danced in a nightclub in Halifax. We were both drunk and laughing. After the last photo, there was an image of a blue sky with a bright cloud and a quote by Rumi, ‘Shine like the whole Universe is yours’.

 

SR - And so you should. Everyone should do that. Smile through the pain too, for abundance isn’t only for good times, the seeds are there in the bad.

Jan - I couldn’t agree more. No one likes the dark times. We want to get through them as quickly as possible but there is no quick way through.

 

SR - No. Rushing that by being busy and creating distractions from the pain will only bring it back later. I love how you are nurturing your journey and observing it.

Jan - I feel that is benefiting me. I am beginning to feel whole again.

 

SR - That is great to hear. I was worried a few months ago.

Jan - Me too. Then everything changed and I realised life is a precious and beautiful thing.

 

SR - Well spotted. What are you doing with today’s gift of life?

Jan - I have a call with a friend and then working on my favourite topic of Happiness, then this evening I am hosting another Sister Circle with my friend, Lianne, and new friends who have welcomed me from the town. I am beginning to grow roots here already.

 

SR - You are. I hope I am one of them.

Jan - You are a very important one of them. My besty

 

SR - That is nice to know. You better go. It sounds like that is a fun-filled day. Plus you have the sun shining.

Jan - It is a perfect day, whatever unfolds in its hours. See you soon.

 

SR - I look forward to it.