13. Allowing ancestors to heal you after loss

Jan - I know. Who knew that could happen? I feel so light today. I woke at 6 am and was happy and inspired to get out of bed at 6.30! These are changed days. I couldn’t make an early walk because of the tide times. I got here as soon as I could. I couldn’t wait to tell you.

 

SR - I am so pleased for you.

Jan - I couldn’t see you when I walked up the beach today. I thought you might have been washed into the sea with the storm.

 

SR - I am solid as a rock. I am not going anywhere. Not for a while. So what do you think has changed?

Jan - well, I haven’t checked the moon yet but maybe it is the effects of two things. I have been following what you suggested about placing my hand on my heart and imagining light and love flowing in to heal me. I do that every night plus connect my imagination with the love of Murray, my parents, and all my ancestors. I see their love flowing through me and ask them for strength to live my life fully. They didn’t have the privileges I do, so I want to live well for them too! Like doing my best on the pitch with them all cheering me on from the sides

 

SR - that is a great use of your mind. What was the other thing?

Jan - I know our minds are easiest to manipulate just before going to sleep, so I talk to myself about how we (me, myself, and I) want to wake up in the morning.

 

SR - this is true. You are making some good choices.

Jan - I also haven’t had any alcohol for ages, I have drastically reduced sugar and been strong enough to say no at times when emotion floods over me. It feels like I am standing strong on the beach and the sea throws a big wave, I bend a little but I don’t break.

 

SR - I have no doubt the day will come when you don’t even bend. That doesn’t mean you are being hard, it means you have stepped into your true power.

Jan - bring on that day. I don’t know if I am making this up but it feels like Murray senses my happiness and is feeling lighter and happier too.

 

SR - I have no doubt that is the truth. He came from you. You two were always connected spirits and you always will be. He walks by your side and holds you when you are down. Take comfort in that.

Jan - Thank you. Your wisdom and love is making me stronger.

 

SR - That is why you named me Sylvia-Rose. That is what you need, strength, courage and the power of love. That is the strongest power of all.

Jan - I love all my children, unconditionally. Yet the love for Murray feels different now, bigger somehow.

 

SR - That is because all the small stuff of daily life has been disconnected from him and while that hurts you as the mother you believed you were, you are a different mother now to Murray. Now you love from your soul to his soul. That love is infinite and you are getting to experience that. Hold it firmly in your heart.

Jan - can we have that kind of love with our living children?

 

SR - Yes. You must stop looking at the small stuff though, ‘why haven’t they called? Why can’t they clean up after themselves?’ Etc. You know what I am talking about. These, of course, are valid human wishes and concerns but to get to the soul love, you must sit quietly and love their souls consciously. Do this regularly. Day and night, especially at night as you pointed out earlier. Then when you are with your children you will see them for the infinite, souls they are, and the small stuff will drift away and leave you to love unconditionally.

Jan - wow. I am blown away by that. Time for me to head off. I will carry this wisdom always. Now, where is that spring in my step again? 

 

SR - see you soon.